Risk vs follow your dreams

McNeely sums it up poignantly, “So, the question is; Do we stand up and take the risks and have a blast enjoying our passions? Or, do we hide in the shadows, being afraid of what might happen if we are so bold to follow our dreams?

http://www.coffeereview.com/allreviews.cfm?search=1 (coffee review)

ennifer Shen Wow didn’t know Taiwan has many of the best rated coffee. I wouldn’t be surprised since Taiwan mountain range has high enough altitidue and we have many fruits (bananas) and exotic flowers grow in Taiwan. I guess I was right when I talked to a roaster (thanks to Sega and Esme), “why is my coffee taste so good?” It had this flowery mellow taste, and the beans were from Hua lien I-lan region. Rated in the 90’s by coffee review. Rarely do I taste flowery tasty beans when most of the coffee fruits have acidic taste. And most of the world most expensive coffee beans are rated by its jolt and acidicity for competition . Americans also like their coffee stronger too not its mellowness, so Kona coffee despite its greatness is not as popular (too mellow like rest of the lovely Hawiians). Starbucks choose its beans purposely with strong and bold taste so you will go day after day, paying that 4 to 5 dollars a cup (more expensive than gas) without blinking.

 

Kona coffee

http://www.therichest.com/luxury/most-expensive/top-10-most-expensive-coffee-in-the-world/

Largest London lego snow globe.

http://lego.gizmodo.com/i-wanna-live-in-the-worlds-largest-lego-snow-globe-1464497250?utm_campaign=socialflow_gizmodo_facebook&utm_source=gizmodo_facebook&utm_medium=socialflow

best 50 dives in the world

http://travel.cnn.com/explorations/escape/outdoor-adventures/worlds-50-best-dive-sites-895793

5 traits of highly successful people.

http://www.linkedin.com/today/post/article/20131011051941-80844253-the-5-traits-of-wildly-successful-people

Day 2 as pet entrepreneur

Actually this is day 2 of my writing about my experience as entrepreneur/beach bum @ Hawaii and California. It will go back and forth with my memory of living in Hawaii for 2 months and how I live in California working on apps. I was supposed to call residency to tell them I want to go back to work. The truth is, I don’t. I was in the hospital and I said to myself. What am I doing here? My creative juice is completely running dry when I am in the hospital. I saw the old me, the young and naive girl who loves medical knowledge standing before me as I was doing my interview. I saw the new me in front of me as well. The one who has been through the venture/entrepreneur world and inspired by the hope and energy of entrepreneurs and creative spirits. As a scientist, I like my life very structured and I like my path very distinct. As a physician, I saw the way I was going. I am going to retire as a physician and be happy with lots of money. But unfourtunately, that wasn’t the way it went. Residency was a total misery. I often question myself why I was there. Going back to interview for another medical job was kind of weird too, because I really didn’t want to be there. I am afraid I have no future. And it’s the same fear I had when I had to go dive. I am afraid I was going to hit the boat when i jump off the boat into the water. I was afraid I was drowning. But instead, I went snorkling and the ocean was supremely magical and beautiful with fish around me. I have to say, I love diving and is fearful of diving at the same time. It’s the same as not being a doctor. I love medical knowledge but I am afraid being a doctor will kill me with bordem and I am not a doctor. I am a better researcher or medical technologist than a physician. I don’t know if I can ever convey that properly. I want to use my knowledge to create better things for people. Not be dictated by what I want to study or what I want to do. I hate the hierarchy of medical world. And sadly, Elizebeth Gilbert put it corectly, creative people suffer and gifts are loaned to us by God. Maybe I was so tormented as a physician because I have this creative gift and I couldn’t express it. Now is the time to do it. I am so thankful. If you fail, you will be disapointed. But if you never tried, then you actually failed. I will always remember that. And I remember how I feel when I went to Hawaii. I was scared. I was afraid I have no friends. And as it turns out I met a lot of friends. I was afraid of the exotic landscape and as it turns out the gods of the lands allowed me to see the most gorgeous sunrises in Hawaii. I was afraid of flying and height and I get to see different islands in the air. and I was thrilled and scared from the capitan, who told us we are about to land and there is big island’s volcano on the right of us and another volcano on my left. I was sitting in the middle and I wished I could have seen it, btu there were no more window seats when I went there during summer time. Hawaii gives me island fever yet I am drawn to it. I love Cali because people understand me but I am still drawn to NYC’s grandiose and Hawaii’s rawness. I saw my video yesterday which my friend sent me. I was thankful to have extra day in Hawaii to do things I want to do like light house in makapu, see heumama bay, stop by spitting cave and saw the pill box sunrise. It’s like God’s gifts to me saying you have an extra day and extra freedom use it. DOn’t worry. I hope that’s right. I was reminded by a professor I interviewed. He discovered the oldest fossil and he wrote books, went to talks and lived on a house next to the cliff and oversee the ocean. He told me if you do what you love, money will come. I don’t know if that is true but creative people suffer but I am happy. I couldnt’ say that when I was an anesthesiology resident due to work environment and people. (not reallyt the work itself). I am so not interested in calling people and telling them I want to come, when I know it wasn’t hte place to be.

My days as pet entrepreneur Day 1

I left my anesthesia residency. The work environment was not only brutal but unhealthy people wise. I was sad to leave only because I don’t know what my future will hold but not because I will never become an anesthesiologist. I didn’t dislike the job. I feel if I have the right people, I will thrive. I left NYC, which is my favorite city. I was sad. On the day of my birthday, i was forced to scrub clean my apartment floor so they won’t charge me. I felt like cindrella, being kicked out of NYC. I shared made by Melissa with mom. It was a small cup cakes. and Cuccino and Son’s dinner was god aweful. The lamb was bad. The decor was beautiful, but the food was not so good nor was the amount. Again, I didn’t feel too good I didn’t make it in NYC. On my 32nd’s birthday. I didn’t have a boyfriend. I was chubby. The goal for me was to lose weight, which I lost 8 pounds once I got back from Taiwan. And I flew to Hawaii. Hoping to make it big in the biotech world……to be continue.

Things that make me happy

1. beach

2. Miss Dior

3. Ukulele

4. Ice cream

5. Chocolates

6. romantic comedy

7. playing with Rika

8. family and friends

9. rainbow

10. dance, tap or swing

Ted Talk summary from youtube. Awesome talk

I feel like I am supposed to be a doctor but I feel like I am jailed when I am hospital. I can’t identify it with my strength. My creativity is completely killed. But how do I live my legend? I start to believe I can’t code or illustrate but I can. 9 year old swim from Alcatraz to SF (disabled). STart with a little step. SUrround yourself with people already doing it. How can I possibly not do this? 100% in your control. NO one tell you what is your limit, You can learn anything you want. First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, fight you then you win. WHat is impossible can be the new normal. What is the work you can not do?