parents and my …

parents and my good friend told me to finish residency, which is two years away. Every day i agonize the fact that I feel trapped, mentally and creatively in the hospital. I look out the window of my hospital, and somehow it reminence the view of alcatraz when the SF prisoner looked out to see SF just a finger reach. I feel trapped. WHen I was reading stanford commencement speech and Steve job’s words just struck me…what am I waiting for. I am too chicken to give up a stable job to start something that is quite scary. I wanted to do tissue engineering. I want to be the person who invent any tissue in the world so people can have organs and I will never have to sit down or any physician have to sit down and tell them, I am sorry, the kidney you wanted might take 5 to 10 years to get them. If you die a little faster, you might be bumping up the list…you are too healthy to be saved. I think that was just bizzare idea the whole transplant issue. Wouldn’t u want to save the healthiest person because they have the higher chance of living?? What’s so good of saving people who are dying and have higher chance of complications? Rather, why not just save everyone if I have the means?? If i can invent any tissue growing out of pt’s own tissue fast….can I then theoretically make them alive without taking all these stupid transplant drugs. Transplant surgeons would not need to wake up in the middle of the night for two kidneys and patient’s family or patient themselves would not need to wake up, go to the hospital, and have me telling them, i am sorry, you didn’t get your kidney. Better luck next time. Transplant surgery would become an elective case like plastic surgery. We cater to your organ, your size, your tissue, without the medication and you pick your schedule, whenever you feel the best to get your organs. You don’t need other people to die and sacrifice themselves to give you what you need. The idea is revolutionary. I want to make a company that makes artificial organs…like you know, lego that can be put to pieces. LIke promethus steal fire for humans, I am borrowing light of wisdom, creation from God. Hopefully, I won’t be punished for the bold stupid ideas that I have. Quote of the day: I am lost if Love is war. I loss the person I love when he gets married. But I still love him and I didn’t want to lose the love for life either…so I read Steve jobs’ books and I love it. 


Stay Hungry stay foolish


Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.




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